so, in case you haven't noticed, there's this boy i like. i see him sometimes on campus and we've hung out a few times, and in those times, i thought that he might feel the same way about me. well, now i'm not so sure. we haven't hung out in a while. granted, we are both very busy people, but still. i'm not sure why i'm investing so much thought into this boy. there is nothing official about it at all, but i still don't want to feel used, which is what i feel i might feel if nothing comes of all this. he is pretty much everything i'm looking for in a potential petit amie, but i don't know what to do about this. i saw him today at dinner and i got really nervous and lost my appetite and megan and i had this long discussion about what i could say to him, which ended in us leaving without saying anything to him. he probably saw me and thought i was a dweeb for not saying hi to him...but he didn't say hi to me either.
this is all very middle school. can you blame me though? i'm not very good at this...never was and then i got out of practice.
i'll read this in a few months and cringe...hopefully because i can't believe i was so stupid to not just talk to this guy, because there is something more there at that point. i really need to check my emotions with this...i'm a mess. ask megan (the little one), she'll tell you.
i'm peachy...and romantically retarded.
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