well hello bloggers. i'm sorry i left for so long. i'm finally in my new apartment, and shantae and i only got internet on monday.
so, the grad school adventure has begun. it's only been a week and a half, so any judgement i have is not fully correct. right now, i'm not as happy as i would hope. grad school is very lonely, especially at psu harrisburg. the campus was founded to cater to the working adult. i'm a baby here, in terms of grad students. i've only met one other student who is fresh from her undergrad. everyone else seems to be much older. almost everyone i meet is married, and even has kids (or in the case of my fellow amst assistant, brant, having a baby on tuesday). there is no real community. people come, take class, and leave. shantae and i were talking about that tonight. we heard about a comedy show on campus and wanted to take that in, but we couldn't find the community center. there is one place to eat on campus, resident or otherwise. the people seem nice enough, just too busy to be looking for friends. i'm sorta friends with brant, who is growing on me, and i'm definitely friends with shantae...she's awesome. but otherwise, i'm alone most of the time. thank god for fred and seth, who i see periodically and they really make my day. i love my professors and the people in the amst and humanities departments, but i'm not terribly impressed with some of the students. oh well. i'll just own, that's all.
the weekends really are my lifeboat. i either get to go to philly and see everyone (2 weeks guys!) or jason comes home and we spend the weekend at the apartment, or with friends. i've been getting very stressed out lately, and my computer is acting up again. i know i've been afforded this amazing experience, but i can't help but get meloncholy almost everyday. i just keep telling myself...just a year, just a year. in one year, i will have a master's degree in american studies and i can really get on with my life. i have no idea what i'll do, but i know better what i will not do. i will NOT sit in an office. i can't deal. I need to be doing something more. i need to teach, or dance or something...we'll figure that out. hopefully my advisors will help me with that.
i'm peachy.
ps: in reference to my title: i really do have a lovely view of tmi from my porch, and planes fly realllly low over psu to land at hia. it's crazy.
3 comments:
When I first read the title of your entry and then your PS at the bottom, my immediate thought was that you were unfortunately overlooking some gross couple doing the nasty outside of your window or something. That would be TMI for anyone looking out their window!
That is all...
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Niecy
funny.. i'm applying for grad school this winter, and i have the huge fear of being too old and being with a bunch of newly released undergrads.
and i agree with Val.. i, too, thought you had a view of some people doing the dirtydirty. it's a shame that you don't. i still dont' know what TMI is so i'll continue to believe you're a voyeur
First off, if you visit Philly again and I don't see your face, I'm aborting you. We must make plans.
Secondly, grad school is increcibly different from undergrad, which I think you only truly realize if you're coming straight from undergrad. Even though there was a pretty tight community at Nova, there was still that detachment you don't feel when you live on a campus for 4 years. It's normal. You'll get used to it.
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