I Vant to Be Alone...

I need Easter Break like woah. I'm now leaving on Wednesday afternoon, since bio is cancelled that day.

I think i lost my best friend for a while. this upsets me a lot. more than most things ever have. and for once, i want to spend days with my girls, and as much as i like my guys, i just have trouble knowing what to say to them anymore. i guess because i had such a good connection that went foul, i don't know what to do. i actually don't know what to do with myself. i'm filling my days with things and an agenda so that i don't have down time to think. i'll most likely be very weepy over the next few days, so bear with me please...i can't help it. as much as i'm enjoying embarking on a new adventure in life, i'm not so happy over all. life is pretty much going to suck for a while for me...and it's my own fault. i ruined something perfectly good to find something more. right now, everything is going fine, but what if it doesn't turn out all right and i've lost my best friend in the process. how stupid am i? nothing against george (nothing at all), but i'm so upset with myself right now.

i'm not peachy in any way, shape, or form.

confusion

the last few days have been full of nothing but confusion...sometimes happy confusion and sometimes extremely upset confusion. things are looking up, however, i hope that everything turns out well for everyone involved.

i don't want to be "that type of person", but i also don't want to regret not doing things. sigh...so complicated.

meh.

i'm peachy.

She Who Laughs, Lasts

Oh, what a weekend this is shaping up to be.

Inductions were fantastic. I hope everyone had a great time.

The "afterparty" was very fun too. Finally took the "picture that could cause the appocolypse" with amy and elise. Also, realized some other things during the evening and took action on those, which will hopefully make this weekend an enjoyable one.

Well, I have to go convince incoming freshman that American Studies is a good idea. Which it is, if anyone has ever seen my schedule.

oh, last night i was also voted (by a select group of inductees) that i was one of the top ten hottest girls in the masque. and someone told me that i was the reason that they joined the masque, and that makes it all worth it to me. thanks kids.

i'm peachy.

Everyone needs their own spot...

I don't know what my title means...it's just what my calendar advised me of today.

This week started off great...i slept through my alarm and therefore missed my first class. good job, megan. I also don't feel in anyway on top of my work. another point for me. Can it be Friday yet? or better yet, Saturday?

Last friday was pretty amazing. My kid (doug, whose birthday happens to be today) is awesome and looks out for his mama and papa. other kids are annoying already. ("papa...i like it when you call me big papa"). anyway, this week should be nice with my kid.

saturday, i'm going to johns. good. we're going to see a show at his school, which should be great, so i'm excited.

speaking of shows, i love damn yankees. I saw East Penn's version of it this weekend and they did such an amazing job that now i'm totally hooked. They didn't do that with Oklahoma and I saw that 7 times. good job kiddies. "tomorrow is the one that counts!"

That's really it. I'm just way mad at myself for starting off this week by not going to my first class...thanks alarm clock. and internal clock.

i'm peachy.

an evening between nerds

today, i give birth (in the masque) to my first baby. now, i know all about my kid and such, but annoucements aren't for another 2 and a 1/2 hours, so i have to hold off. there will be another update later. this is discussing my life as it is...recently.

i think everyone knows what's going on with john, so i won't bore anyone with that.

lately, i can't sleep more than 5 to 6 hours. it's very annoying.

this is probably the busiest week i've ever had where i wasn't involved with a show...i leave my room fairly early each day and i get back far too late at night (last night's eta: 2am). i have meetings, meetings, classes galore, and lots of work to be done all the time. also, i'm going home this weekend and i frequently like to clean and do laundry and the like before i leave. I don't know why. maybe i just want to have clean underwear. whatever.

i just have so much on my mind lately that i guess that's why i can't sleep. i always have work to do, even if it's not due the next day, i fret about it (which is unlike me...with schoolwork). starting at 12:30 today, i have a bouncing bundle of masque kid to take care of, so i have to make sure there's time for my kid each day...sigh.

charter dinner tonight. perhaps this will solve all of my problems.

i also registered for my honors courses on tuesday. i got honors project (woo!) and business/law ethics with kerlin. i have to meet with dr. ryan and mr. grady (today at 11:30), get my other classes in order and register on the 28th...about a week before my classmates. thank you advanced placement. so much to do!

i'm a stressed peach...which can't be good for my lovely peach complexion.

watch this now!

this is almost 4 and a half minutes long, but it is worth it in everyway. and it's got the Beatles involved, so of course i love it.

most amazing juggling you will ever see

comment.

i'm peachy.

"and in the end, the love you take is equal to the love you make"

procrastination

I LIVE: in the martini lounge.
I WORK: on the masque tumbleweed when i should be doing school work
I TALK: all the time.
I WISH: on the moon.
I ENJOY: new office supplies and my almond joy shirt
I LOOK: pretty nice today
I SEE: my messy desk.
I SMELL: my smelly pig (fear not, it smells tropical)
I LISTEN: to bach.
I HIDE: bad things
I PRAY: a lot
I WALK: funny
I WRITE: in my journals.
I HOPE: for good things to happen to those who deserve it.
I SING: when i'm not talking.
I LAUGH: silently...most of the time.
I CAN: do anything i put my mind to.
I WATCH: conan and snl.
I LEARN: everyday.
I DREAM: a lot.
I WANT: to be a professor
I CRY: over stupid crap.
I BURNT: toast on more than one occasion.
I READ: fitzgerald.
I LOVE: theatre.
I SOMETIMES: think too much.
I TOUCH: my hair all the time.
I HURT: my feet a lot.
I FEAR: the worst.
I HOPE: for the best
I BREAK: out all the time.
I EAT: salty things.
I QUIT: very seldom.
I BATHE: when i feel like it.
I DRINK: cream soda and kool-aid (not together, mind you).
I SAVE: dances for people.
I HUG: everyone
I MEDITATE: before tests
I PLAY: the piano.
I MISS: my piano and my cats.
I HOLD: my friends close
I FORGIVE: more often than i should.
I DRIVE: my sister crazy.
I HAVE: a pretty decent existance.
I DON'T: fail.
I MADE: my scrapbooks and the masque tumbleweed.
I BELIEVE: in a thing called love...just listen to the rhythm of my heart...
I OWE: $10.00 to la salle for someone else's mistake!
I FEEL: pretty pissed about the above statement
I KNOW: that people care about me and what happens to me.
I WONDER: what life has in store for me.

i'm peachy.

(also, if you have any more info about the masque tree...email it to me! contact others who would have it as well...)