i am an old woman.

i am officially 75 years old.

last night at the "booze and beef" party (we drank alcohol and ate various beef and beef flavored products just because it was beautiful outside) i was the first to leave. I was exhausted. and it was 11 o clock. Thanks to george for walking me home. I came back here, talked to people online, ate something and went right to bed. beautiful.

I do feel like the old woman of the group here because i just can't seem to have as much fun as everyone else. boo. it's also ironic because i don't look my age to begin with, so how can i be 50 years older than my age? it's weird.

i still get my xanga subscription digest (to keep up with the kiddies from home) and this morning was full of vague entries. who does my sister "hate that she doesn't hate"? and who are other's entries meant towards? i don't get it.

(i hope i'm correct in responding to this) i know you are. don't let it get you too down.

i have a film midterm today. and a masque meeting! woo!!! i'm way too excited about the latter. way.

i also got a new bach CD from dr. andrilli (who's midterm i did NOT fail...or in fact come close). I got a B on both my midterms. I wasn't specific enough on moreau's, although i still can't see how anyone can get a 100. they need to go somewhere else to school. both classes have a paper due at some point in the future and i know i'll do well on those, so i'm looking at a B+ / A in both those classes. As a whole, i'm looking at a bunch of A's. :) i think.

well, i guess i should get ready to greet the day. study, shower, and re-charge my gosh darn, piece of shit phone.

i'm peachy!!

some things i've noticed

when one is single, you are more accutely aware of those who are not.

i wish i had a roommate who lived with me.

there is nothing good on after grey's anatomy on sunday nights.

i am relatively unhappy right now and i don't want anyone to try to change that. it will just annoy me.

i am extremely lonely. in more than one sense.

Do over?

Can I do Spring Break over again? I think i messed it up this time.

John and I are taking another "break"...in plain text, we broke up again, but since we're pros at this, we know exactly what to expect in certain aspects. I made sure that we would see each other and he is still my date to formal. We spent the day together yesterday, even though we broke up. this isn't supposed to happen over breaks...but it always does.

I also went up to New Jersey for a few days to visit my aunt and cousins. As much fun as I had, I wish a little that I had stayed at home. I haven't gotten anything done.

None of my friends are home either, save for John, who has plans for the rest of break. My sister doesn't have the time to see me.

In short, this break sucked. even though i got to watch the Oscars and buy Risk.

sigh.

I'm not as peachy as i thought i was.

survey thingy...that john sent me...really!

here's a survey thing that john put on his journal....so fill it out and post as a comment on my journal. i hope everyone who reads this takes the time to fill it out.

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we'll be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1 to 10, how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression of me?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything, what would it be?
28. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Do you think our friendship is growing stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
33. Do you feel you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
34. Are you going to put this on your xanga and see what I say about you?

i'm peachy...and at my aunts house, so the best way to reach me is my gmail. peachy.colleen@gmail.com use it...

oscar! oscar!

last night was my favorite night of the year: the academy awards. this makes me a dork and i realize this, but still. i also saw "crash" the night before, and i'm hooked. it was one of the most amazing films i have ever seen. go rent it. now.

comments:
"crash" deserved to beat "brokeback mountain"
i'm very glad reese witherspoon won.
who the hell are 36 mafia and what drug did they give the academy voters?
"in the deep" should have won best song.
the montages were amazing.
the opening sequence was also amazing (i have to spend more time with steve martin's kids)

that's all right now. i loved reese witherspoon's dress and hated charlize theron's.

i'm peachy.

brokeback bunnies.

as many brokeback mountain paradies as there are, there is one that will always stand above the rest. my 30 second bunnies troupe. They have added a number of films to their collection since the last time i provided the link.

here's the link to the main site: angry alien productions
and here's a direct link to the brokeback mountain cartoon

i'm peachy!

friday? it's me, megan.

i need friday to come. i want to see john. i want to go home.

believe me, i'm actually very happy right now. i'm in a healthy (umm...) and committed relationship with someone that i love very much (always a plus). my classes are going well. i have my day ONE interviews tomorrow. i love being vp ar&r elect (although i feel like i'm already vp ar&r...there's sooo much to do). but for reasons i'm not divulging to just anyone, i want to go home. very badly. i miss my cats, among other things.

tomorrow is going to be very busy. i need to get some sleep tonight too. 4 hours wasn't enough last night, although in retrospect, it was worth it. sometimes things have to happen, and if it's at 3:30 in the morning, that's fine.

time for dinner.

sara, are you happy now? i updated!

i'm peachy.